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So this is Vivian again... I know it has been a while - life just happened. Surely you know what I mean. In a matter of one week we lost one of hte most precious men in our lives - Jesse's grandfather - only to get back from MS and find out that night that we were expecting one of the most precious gifts Jesus can give - a baby! Needless to say, with the ups and downs of pregnancy, holidays and continuing life as a wife, intake coordinator, friend and family member - I got lost on my blogs!
In the past couple of weeks some things have stood out to me... how much family means. It is hard being away from family with all of the events happening that have just happened in our lives. Death is hard, very hard, being away from family during that time is hard. On the other end of the spectrum, we have found that new life can be hard, very hard. And just like death, being away from family has proven to be difficult. Sometimes the thing I long for the most is just to cuddle with my mom - she knows how it is to be pregnant, she knows a lot of things.
In all of this, we have also learned the crazy mystery of God. We have a being that is living, already with a beating heart, inside of me. There is no way we could have done anything to deserve such a thing or even create such a thing... it is such a God thing. It also is a shock to your system. One suddenly realizes from about week 4 that it is no longer about you - NOTHING IS!! I can't keep up with things the way I long to, but it's not about me anymore - not that it ever was, it is just the reality I wake up to now though.
All of this to say, once again we are learning God in a new way... a very exciting, crazy new way. I feel as though there is so much to learn in life, I never want to quit... even though sometimes it can be tiring... sorry for all of the rambling thoughts - vc
In the past couple of weeks some things have stood out to me... how much family means. It is hard being away from family with all of the events happening that have just happened in our lives. Death is hard, very hard, being away from family during that time is hard. On the other end of the spectrum, we have found that new life can be hard, very hard. And just like death, being away from family has proven to be difficult. Sometimes the thing I long for the most is just to cuddle with my mom - she knows how it is to be pregnant, she knows a lot of things.
In all of this, we have also learned the crazy mystery of God. We have a being that is living, already with a beating heart, inside of me. There is no way we could have done anything to deserve such a thing or even create such a thing... it is such a God thing. It also is a shock to your system. One suddenly realizes from about week 4 that it is no longer about you - NOTHING IS!! I can't keep up with things the way I long to, but it's not about me anymore - not that it ever was, it is just the reality I wake up to now though.
All of this to say, once again we are learning God in a new way... a very exciting, crazy new way. I feel as though there is so much to learn in life, I never want to quit... even though sometimes it can be tiring... sorry for all of the rambling thoughts - vc
posted by The Fountain at Philadelphia | 6:33 AM
2 Comments:
Viv,
Hope your time with family over Christmas was refreshing and strengthening. You have an incredible family - you are blessed!!!
We consider it a privilege to be alongside you while "tater tot" grows within you. Very meaningful blog - Thanks. Stephen
What about cuddling with your Opa? He know's alot about pregnancy, too...lived thru four of them with yo' Momma!!! I miss you...
Opa
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